I saw his attitude to people, animals, and nature. There was a lot of love in his actions and his behavior. That absolute love that I was struggling to find all over the world. He didn’t ask anyone for money, didn’t tell who and what people should do. Everything seemed to be happening on its own and the best way it could.

“Don’t seek the happiness outside” – Babagi used to repeat. “Don’t seek God in religions, and your joy and calmness – in other people. Everything that you are looking for outside is actually there – inside of you”.

After arriving back home in Novosibirsk, I understood: that’s it, my life has changed – completely and till the very end. I’ve found my escape from the dead end I was in for many years. Here it is – my path. It leads me towards myself.

There was a wonderful example in front of me – a true master of himself, and I didn’t want to stay what I was. By the way, after meeting and speaking with the Teacher, I stopped my search for new knowledge, there was no need for extra information sources anymore, neither did I need any advice on what would be “right”, or where I “should move to”… I found my way and started by doing everything I studied during Pilot Babagi seminars on daily basis. The knowledge and exercises helped develop and change myself faster and more qualitatively than hundreds of books, knowledge and practices I had tried before.

The teacher said that the main thing is to clean up your mind and body continuously. That’s what I started doing right after coming back from India. I totally changed my schedule: started waking up at 5 or 6 o’clock in the morning, did yoga, meditated, spent 3–4 hours a day doing breath practices, improved my ability to hold my breath for a long time. After about a month, I could hold my breath for 4 minutes at first, and for more than 5 minutes later on.

Thanks to active and consistent practicing and meditation, I got more and more inner freedom and calmness. My happiness seemed to be multiplying day by day. There were many big and small changes in my life. I started making decisions that were unusual for me, did unusual actions, thought in a different way.

I was cleansing my mind, changed my lifestyle, habits, and food. I tried to help people more, cared about my thoughts, feelings and behavior. I studied the ways my Ego showed itself, and tried to find new, purer and deeper, ways to live in peace and build relationships with other people.

Watching myself, I looked carefully at each and every negative feeling, every action or decision which might cause a passionate reaction, or anger, criticism, or pain. I started judging myself more fairly. If I am everything I do, why would I be unfair with myself? Why should I create an illusion of being a person I am not?

THE MORE I WORKED ON MYSELF, THE MORE CALMNESS, INNER FREEDOM, AND JOY I FELT.

Even a small change in any sphere of my life – food, yoga exercises, meditation, or watching myself – brought joy, and filled me up with energy, giving me more power.

I became freer: from business, from former habits, from the effect of the internet and television. I was getting rid of my outer ties, and gathering my inner freedom rapidly. I felt good just being. To feel happy, I didn’t need to drink alcohol, seek entertainment, or listen to funny stories, starving for joy… It was so inspiring that I couldn’t turn out off this way and stop. I felt the taste of another life!

My personal and professional relationships were far from ideal, though. By that time, I had already left my former thoughts about both: business and family, but I didn’t know how to put my life together. Only one thing was absolutely clear: I didn’t want to go back to the past.