Orel looked at Nikto's face but couldn't understand what he was thinking at this moment, no matter how much he tried. He would like to know it so much! He lost the track of his thoughts, stammered, trying to express what he wanted to say.
"No, don't think I fell out of love with you, I think it's just impossible… and maybe because I love you even more I don't want to keep forcing you. I don't know if you understand me but I swear by all my ancestors that you will be just my friend. Do you think I won't be able to stand it? I'll stand it, don't doubt. You said it yourself that I handle pain well. You will be on the team, as before, we'll talk but there will be nothing else for my part, just friendship. Believe me, believe me, Nik, you're free from my love, and there will be no hard feelings from me. You know it's silly," he smiled sadly, "but I hoped that since I love you so much, you'll get to love me too," he paused.
"Yeah, I was too self-confident. Well, it's just that it never happened to me before. If I showed any interest about anyone, they were glad to respond to me. And for some reason I decided that it would be forever like that. Well, it didn't work – and to kiss you knowing that you just want to please me and you don't have any feelings towards me – I don't want that. It is humiliating me, and you too. I need everything or nothing – yes, that's it. I decided to make a choice like that. Enough of this illusion of relationship, it is stupid. That is why, Nik, leave – go to the Lower City, to the others. And when you come back, I won't be in your room, I'll go to mine. We'll forget everything that happened. I'll never remind you about it," he looked away. "Perhaps I've talked for too long but I wanted you to understand that I don't need your gratitude any more, you're free. Leave, Nik, it'll be right. I respect your choice and there are no hard feelings from me."
Nikto kept silent. At last he slowly got up from the armchair. Orel tensed all over but didn't look at him.
"Arel…" Nikto started.
Orel stopped him with a gesture.
"Don't. Don't explain anything, I'll be all right."
Nikto knelt down at the bed slowly, took Orel's hand.
"Nik, leave! For your gods' sake!" Orel said hoarsely.
"But I don't want to leave! I don't need your Lower City and your friends, I don't need anyone but you!"
Nikto pressed his face to Orel's hand.
"You say you don't want my gratitude any more but I was not thanking you! I did only what I wanted myself. I kissed you not because I wanted to thank you but because I wanted to kiss you. Let me stay with you!"
"What? Gods, Nik, I can't believe my ears!"
Nikto raised his eyes at him.
"Orel, I want to stay with you. It's my choice."
"Nik, Nik!" Orel pulled him closer; Nikto readily leaned towards him, kissing his hands.
"Nik," Orel laughed, "stop kissing my hands, you silly! What a habit you have! I'm not your master and you're not a slave!" he hugged Nikto's shaggy head, pressed it to his chest. "You're not my slave, you're not my servant, we're equal, hear me?"
Nikto nodded.
"Nik, you won't regret your choice," Orel was shining with happiness. "I swear you! I'll do everything for that, you'll never regret staying with me!"
"I know," Nikto said, "I know."
In a fit of insanity Squint-Eye cuts off his long hair and bangs.
Lis tries to get friendly with Asa. He wants to use her to find out something about Nikto and to get to Tol by making her his lover.
Bey manages to find allies in his war against Orel. He attacks.
With enormous efforts and great losses Orel's soldiers hold the positions they recently acquired.